Chapter 21: Christmas Complaints
A found out a few days ago that a few days from now is Christmas. It’s not like I forgot about Christmas, but I forgot about it. December really flew by while dragging along, y'know. I’m in college & weeks go by so fast for no reason, but it felt dragged out because of finals. Therefore, I thought I had time. But this past Tuesday, I decided to look at a calendar, right? Right. Tell me why it said “December 18th”? Excuse me, but who told you that you could turn 18, December? You’re just trying to turn older because I didn’t it first & you’re jealous. Whatever. Not the point. The point is that I KNOW for certain that I am not the only one that is taken aback by the news that it’s the eve of Christmas Eve.
I don’t know how it became this way, but Christmas just isn’t “Christmas” anymore. One of the reasons why I’m so adamant to youngsters on growing up being “a trap” is because of moments like this. Why is it that I’m slowly growing tired of Christmas music so soon? Why am I not worried about giving/receiving anything? Where’s the spirit? It’s so weird, and I know it’s not just me. It’s kind of unsettling, actually. This is supposed to be my favorite holiday and I’m feeling like this. It’s depressing and it’s burdening if I express this to anyone that feels the Christmas spirit. I don’t know. There’s just things I’d rather not deal with this year. Maybe I’m just tired of every holiday becoming romanticized and everyone making everything about their significant other by bragging in everyone’s faces. Or maybe I’d rather not deal with everyone’s fake, “jolly” attitude that’s going to go straight back to normal on December 26th. Maybe I’m just “grown”.
I’ll tell you what, though. The one thing that I’m never going to get tired of is my closest surroundings. Despite the vibe you’re probably getting from this chapter, I do love the whole aesthetic and feeling of Christmas. This is my favorite quarter of the year and this is always a beautiful time to end the year. I love looking at my life at this point and thinking where I was last year and I’m blessed I am to be here. The fact that the only thing I have to complain about is Christmas not feeling like Christmas is, ironically enough, pretty amazing. Like, wow God. You really did that!
So, with all this being said, if you're feeling similar feelings like me about Christmas not feeling like "Christmas" anymore, I encourage you to unpack it. What made Christmas what it was back in the day? Is there a way you could make it a beautiful time again? Sorry there’s not much to this chapter, but if you’re reading this, I’d like to wish you a safe, beautiful, and Happy Holiday Season!!
Here is my present to you, as always (even though most of you probably don't even listen to the songs every week, but whatever.):
Sincerely Yours Sometimes,
PS: SONG OF THE WEEK: Donnie Trumpet & The Social Experiment - Sunday Candy
(Every time I post, I will include a song that may or may not correlate with the topic I write about. This is me thanking you for reading my posts by gifting you with good music.)